This post is maybe going to be too meta – blogging about blogging – but I want to stay real with you guys and write about what’s been going on in this little old mind of mine.
Blogging has been a really eye-opening, interesting experience for me. First off, it’s challenged me to really get vulnerable…to put myself out there for anyone in the world to mock or laugh at or disagree with. To throw myself into this idea that has every possibility of failing. To put a bunch of work into something that could be read by zero people. To not know if this whole thing is doing good for you, or for me.
It’s also taught me a lot about me. Just like, me, in general. I’ve had to think a lot about the design of the blog, what I will write about, what pictures I’ll use, how I’ll advertise and where, how personal is too personal and how professional is too professional. In an effort to draw people to my blog, I have to think about what draws me to other peoples’ blogs, and why those blogs appeal to me. I have to think about my values – what I deem important to write about and what just isn’t.
It’s like some big, internal puzzle I’m trying to solve. Trying to define the pieces of me and how they fit into the pieces of you. Maintaining an authentic voice has always been important to me – but what even is my authentic voice? There’s the Lindsey that loves comedy and goofiness and the Lindsey that loves to be a professional go-getter and the Lindsey that loves to read great literature and write like a wannabe classic author. When you have so many voices, which do you use? And how can you possibly convey to your audience of strangers that each voice is truly authentic?
It’s given my longing for creativity a new meaning. It’s shown me that creative projects are always going to be worth it, whether they are good or bad or loved by everyone or hated by anyone. Either way, my creative projects will always teach me something about myself. They’ll help shape and define my idea of who I am and what I like and what I find important.
I’m pretty sure that’s always worth it.